After my declaration last week, I headed to Sainsburys. Stocked up on salads, fruit, lean meats, yoghurts, low cal drinks and plenty of 2finger kitkats(5 syns on slimming world)
I decided, after numerous fad diets, Slimming world and exercise is the only way!
I've never been a breakfast person, but Ive started eating a banana and yoghurt and a few grapes to kick start the metabolism. Followed by a cup of warm water with lemon. (Lisa Snowdon swears by it!)
By lunchtime, I'm hungry but not starving: Reaching for the kind prawns and a massive pot of stir fry I heat it all up with soy sauce and it was delicious! Not a carb in sight ! Followed down by a muller light and an apple.
By mid morning, the petrol garage snacks are calling. I've got to go in to pay for my fuel. I spend about 20minutes with the ready made sandwiches and pasties. I pick them up walk away then stop. I look down at myself and I remember how I got here in the first place. I walk back to the fridge and put them back. I pick up some grapes and a diet coke.
I have won against the fatty in my head this time!
After dinner, hubby gets out a bar of dairy milk. (I'm not a chocolate person, not my thing , I prefere cakes and biscuits and savoury snacks) But the chocolate smells soooo good!
He munches away, not offering me any as I told him under no circumstances do I want nor need it! I have enough food stores to survive a few months I reckon.
Heading to the fridge I get out some grapes and munch through them. I have beat the fatty in my head again!
Success for now!!
Monday, 26 March 2012
Monday, 19 March 2012
DAY ONE!
So , after my introduction, I have started my diet again....no, not diet, way of life! If I had a £ for every time I said that I'd be extremely rich!
Spent this morning at work, and thinking about food and how I am going to conquer it. Looked at all the magazines and all the inspirational stories. Ready to aid mine to it.
Went on LighterLife website. Due to my weight being disgustingly high, I fall into the Total diet, (for people with ALOT to lose)! So, the plan consists of 4 shakes /soups. No food. Calorie intake less than 1,000. You're mad right?? Well, not when I read a woman lost 5stone in 3months. That would bring me to target weight by the wedding!
Is it do-able or is it fiction. Are these testimonials of real fatties or just skinny people who have only been fat once. I have been fat most my life. Can I do it? Can i just drink soup and shakes?? If I could would I be this fat? Aren't I fat because I cant control myself?? Maybe this is what I need? The control taken away? Maybe I just need my mouth sowing up!
Either way, 5stone in 3months sounds worth it! It'll take me the best part of a year (or more) to lose that!
I could be a size 12 again by the summer!? Ooooh Its so tempting!
I have therefore had a shake for breakfast and one for lunch. I'm starving but the thought of an above the knee dress is enough to put me off food. Will I cope with another shake when my other half is munching on a carb-rich diet of pasta and sauce?
I have set my screensaver as me in a tiny size 10 fancy dress outfit. When my boobs were little, my bingo wings non existent and my legs lean and slim. Every few minutes I look at the picture of the young girl I used to be. The one who cared what people thought, the girl who wanted attention rather than sitting in the corner. The one who teased and seduced boys rather than getting into wolly pjs and going to bed before even a peck on the cheek.
Will returning to that girl take me back there? Or am I just older, more mature and settled down. Whatever happens, my health is at risk and I dont want to risk heart attacks or strokes. And thats the important thing to remember instead of vanity. Im 24 and on my way to being a big fat heffa who is lifted by 20men to get out of bed .....(maybe not quite that bad) but who's to say if I dont stop now, I will ever stop!
Time to put the handbrake on and get in reverse. Get these excess stones off and get my life back. And I might become a sexy seren again?! Who knows!
Spent this morning at work, and thinking about food and how I am going to conquer it. Looked at all the magazines and all the inspirational stories. Ready to aid mine to it.
Went on LighterLife website. Due to my weight being disgustingly high, I fall into the Total diet, (for people with ALOT to lose)! So, the plan consists of 4 shakes /soups. No food. Calorie intake less than 1,000. You're mad right?? Well, not when I read a woman lost 5stone in 3months. That would bring me to target weight by the wedding!
Is it do-able or is it fiction. Are these testimonials of real fatties or just skinny people who have only been fat once. I have been fat most my life. Can I do it? Can i just drink soup and shakes?? If I could would I be this fat? Aren't I fat because I cant control myself?? Maybe this is what I need? The control taken away? Maybe I just need my mouth sowing up!
Either way, 5stone in 3months sounds worth it! It'll take me the best part of a year (or more) to lose that!
I could be a size 12 again by the summer!? Ooooh Its so tempting!
I have therefore had a shake for breakfast and one for lunch. I'm starving but the thought of an above the knee dress is enough to put me off food. Will I cope with another shake when my other half is munching on a carb-rich diet of pasta and sauce?
I have set my screensaver as me in a tiny size 10 fancy dress outfit. When my boobs were little, my bingo wings non existent and my legs lean and slim. Every few minutes I look at the picture of the young girl I used to be. The one who cared what people thought, the girl who wanted attention rather than sitting in the corner. The one who teased and seduced boys rather than getting into wolly pjs and going to bed before even a peck on the cheek.
Will returning to that girl take me back there? Or am I just older, more mature and settled down. Whatever happens, my health is at risk and I dont want to risk heart attacks or strokes. And thats the important thing to remember instead of vanity. Im 24 and on my way to being a big fat heffa who is lifted by 20men to get out of bed .....(maybe not quite that bad) but who's to say if I dont stop now, I will ever stop!
Time to put the handbrake on and get in reverse. Get these excess stones off and get my life back. And I might become a sexy seren again?! Who knows!
The beginning!
Well, here I am, nearly 8years after my first diet and I'm heavier than ever.
I'm a 24 year old intellengent woman. I have a great professional career. Earn a good wage, manage stressful job. I can hold down a relationship, look after 2 dogs but I CAN'T MANAGE MY WEIGHT.
Always have been overweight.
Eat too much. Like the wrong things.
When I was 16 I joined Slimming World, I lost 3 stone in under a year. I was a lovely little healthy size 10-12. I partied hard and enjoyed myself. Although I wasn't really "happy".
Since then I have gained a few pounds then lost them . Gained a stone then lost it. Always keeping to my neat little size 12. I took for granted being able to wear nice dresses above the knee.
Even at a size 12 I wanted to lose more. I'm obsessed with being slim. I'm obsessed with being "normal".
Looking back, I was perfect as a size 12. I looked amazing. But it came at a price. I followed a diet and never relaxed. I was guilt ridden when I ate a biscuit and god forbid I should have a take away.
I met my other half when I was a size 10-12. I looked amazing. We had an amazing first year and I felt sexy.
Then last year, I lost a very dear family member. I piled on the weight. I gained stretch marks on my belly, arms and legs. My boobs went up 3 sizes and I became obese, again.
My relationship is strong and I am content. I no longer feel he's judging me and the awkward nerves have gone. MY other half loves me and I dont have to "worry".
I dont feel sexy. I dont wear dresses. I never wear lingerie and I definately dont go out in anything less than a kaftan.
I am now a size 18. I'm only 5 foot 3.
I'm topping the scales at 15stone.
I watch every weight related program on telly and I am always looking for a quick fix.
I start a diet, lose a stone then get lazy.
I have stopped loving myself.
I cannot be healthy this weight.
I have a Wedding in August and a hen do in June. I want to wear a dress. I want to catch the boquet because I eventually would like to get married and I don't want to be a fat bride.
I have done Slimming World, Weight Watchers, Atkins, Dukan, Soup diet, smoothie diet, Slim Fast, Lighter life. All worked for a short time.
Here is my story: My weight loss journey. My attempt to love me again.
I'm a 24 year old intellengent woman. I have a great professional career. Earn a good wage, manage stressful job. I can hold down a relationship, look after 2 dogs but I CAN'T MANAGE MY WEIGHT.
Always have been overweight.
Eat too much. Like the wrong things.
When I was 16 I joined Slimming World, I lost 3 stone in under a year. I was a lovely little healthy size 10-12. I partied hard and enjoyed myself. Although I wasn't really "happy".
Since then I have gained a few pounds then lost them . Gained a stone then lost it. Always keeping to my neat little size 12. I took for granted being able to wear nice dresses above the knee.
Even at a size 12 I wanted to lose more. I'm obsessed with being slim. I'm obsessed with being "normal".
Looking back, I was perfect as a size 12. I looked amazing. But it came at a price. I followed a diet and never relaxed. I was guilt ridden when I ate a biscuit and god forbid I should have a take away.
I met my other half when I was a size 10-12. I looked amazing. We had an amazing first year and I felt sexy.
Then last year, I lost a very dear family member. I piled on the weight. I gained stretch marks on my belly, arms and legs. My boobs went up 3 sizes and I became obese, again.
My relationship is strong and I am content. I no longer feel he's judging me and the awkward nerves have gone. MY other half loves me and I dont have to "worry".
I dont feel sexy. I dont wear dresses. I never wear lingerie and I definately dont go out in anything less than a kaftan.
I am now a size 18. I'm only 5 foot 3.
I'm topping the scales at 15stone.
I watch every weight related program on telly and I am always looking for a quick fix.
I start a diet, lose a stone then get lazy.
I have stopped loving myself.
I cannot be healthy this weight.
I have a Wedding in August and a hen do in June. I want to wear a dress. I want to catch the boquet because I eventually would like to get married and I don't want to be a fat bride.
I have done Slimming World, Weight Watchers, Atkins, Dukan, Soup diet, smoothie diet, Slim Fast, Lighter life. All worked for a short time.
Here is my story: My weight loss journey. My attempt to love me again.
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